When Spiritual Growth Wasn’t the Missing Piece

There was a moment—actually, a season—when I realized something important:

My lack of movement wasn’t a lack of clarity. It wasn’t motivation. And it definitely wasn’t effort.

It was alignment.

After decades in a corporate career, I reached my mid-50s with a strong skill set and a growing sense that my outer life no longer matched my inner truth. That realization sparked a deep spiritual journey, one that led me into interfaith ministry, spiritual counseling, and a wide range of practices that expanded my understanding of purpose and service.

Spiritually, I was awake. Emotionally, I was aware. And yet, I was still hesitating to fully live.

What I didn’t understand at the time was this:

Insight lives in the conscious mind. Safety lives in the subconscious.

While my conscious mind was saying yes, my subconscious was quietly asking:

• Is this safe at your age?

• What if you fail?

• Who do you think you are to want more?

These weren’t thoughts I argued with. They were assumptions my nervous system had accepted long ago. When I was a child.

Subconscious programs don’t shout. They whisper and they shape behavior.

That’s why mindset work alone wasn’t enough for me. I needed to work where the patterns were stored.

Turning point:

Discovering hypnosis and NLP was like finding the missing lever. Not about control. Not about fixing anything broken.

It was about gently updating outdated internal rules.

Rules that once protected me but were no longer true.

As those inner patterns shifted, my choices changed. My energy changed. My sense of timing changed.

And eventually, my life followed.

If you’ve grown spiritually but still feel restrained…If you understand your patterns but keep repeating them…If your mind knows better, but your body hesitates…

The question may not be what else do I need to learn?

It may be what does my subconscious need to feel safe enough to move?